Is Anger "Spiritual?"

We have all heard it, “You are a Spiritual person, you do Yoga, meditate and pray right? Then why do you get angry? Why you get angry with me? Why you show your anger with me?”  Maybe you have not; however, I have heard this myself.  For me, I have even heard the comparison (because I am an Animal Chaplain, a Humane Minister, ‘a holy person.’) “You say your a minister, a holy person, but Jesus never got angry…” Really? Yes,  Jesus and other holy people got and get angry and showed it. I get angry, raise my voice, and even ‘get depressed,’  I’ll give you an example, a story of my own.

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I am in India, three of the 5 times I went as a consultant for several Animal Ashrams. An Ashram is defined as ‘a hermitage, monastic community, or other place of religious retreat.’ These were Ashrams for Animals, where the Animals are considered part of the Divine. I am asked to help them organize the hospitality of the Animals, to define jobs, to ‘get good schedule’ for the Animals, to oversee these jobs and schedule and to get the Animal care ‘to more compassionate standards’ and ‘help us get more orderly.’ So I do, I watch what is taking place, make suggestions, and am told to instill or oversee them.

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When I first arrived in India, admittedly I was confused, angry, and most definitely a bit of sadness. I had some judgments about how I saw the Animals being treated, I was  angry and disappointed…a controlled wrath almost. I learned quickly my anger was my own judgment, especially from seeing the overwhelming misery and having expectations about what I heard or what is considered the “spiritual capital of the world.” I learned that standards of care are relative to the environment, religious beliefs, knowledge and caste systems. This is where I also learned a deepened sense of compassion and understanding not only for what the non-human Animals were demonstrating to us, but the human Animal as well. The words, “Forgive them Father for they know not what they do,” kept resounding through my mind.

I became no longer angry with the ‘other human,’ but a sense of gratitude and compassion deepened, for both the human and non-human. Just like me, they are all wanting to be better. That first consulting experience ended, and though I learned to speak, demonstrate, and witness some changes in the Ashram, the Animals and the people; when I returned for my next Ashram’s consultation, the anger from that point became an anger I directed at myself for feeling as if I have not ‘done enough,’ spoken up loudly and clearly enough. How come this message is not broadcast everywhere?

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You see, in all my visits I spoke up for the Animals’ care, how the Animals demonstrate what is going on in the human consciousness and by using the Golden Rule that is present in all religions, cultures, and faiths. I could see how it changed lives! Not just the non-human Animals, but it began with the human Animals’ lives.

With each instruction I gave, it was taken…”Yes, mam. Will do, mam;” however, not always implemented, or fully understood. Sometimes, Animals lives were at stake, or they were ‘suffering.’ I spoke harshly the second time I had to share, and if there was a third time I had to repeat myself, it came from a ‘not so pretty place,’ or resorted to doing/demonstrating myself. My justification was the Animals cannot speak for themselves. Then, I would get angry at myself for getting angry, and several times it took me to getting depressed. Sometimes, I would spend hours, days, or even weeks feeling as if there was ‘something wrong’ with me, my spirituality. One thing is for sure, a majority of the people I have met are angels who have taught me that their goodness, their determination that they want only the best for the Animals, and they want to be educated to do better to, and how we both can be better when we are willing to communicate openly from the heart,  setting our own judgments, assumptions, expectations and ‘shoulds’ aside.

Sometimes though, communication would stop. One of the humans would stop communicating with me. I would feel like a messenger who ‘got shot.’ Well, Jesus got crucified and Jesus did get angry . Actually, there are 7 moments when Jesus acted unlike what we call “Jesus” or “God-like.”  In an article written by Rational Christianity it states:

“Is such anger wrong? To say “God is never angry” or “God should never be angry” is to say that God shouldn’t be angry when innocent people are hurt or killed, or that he shouldn’t be angry that the Holocaust took place. There are different kinds of anger, as described in the Merriam-Webster dictionary:

ANGER, IRE, RAGE, FURY, INDIGNATION, WRATH mean an intense emotional state induced by displeasure. ANGER, the most general term, names the reaction but in itself conveys nothing about intensity or justification or manifestation of the emotional state <tried to hide his anger>. IRE, more frequent in literary contexts, may suggest greater intensity than anger, often with an evident display of feeling <cheeks flushed dark with ire>. RAGE suggests loss of self-control from violence of emotion <screaming with rage>. FURY is overmastering destructive rage that can verge on madness <in her fury she accused everyone around her of betrayal>. INDIGNATION stresses righteous anger at what one considers unfair, mean, or shameful <a refusal to listen that caused general indignation>. WRATH is likely to suggest a desire or intent to revenge or punish <rose in his wrath and struck his tormentor to the floor>.

Indignation, as described above, is what could be called righteous anger – anger at wrongdoing. This is Jesus’ anger, for Jesus is angered by wrongdoing. Clearly some forms of anger (such as fury as defined above) are wrong, and this is the anger that Jesus spoke out against in Matthew 5:22 – anger that is destructive and unnecessarily demeaning.”

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So, here is another statement I heard several times, “Give us the instructions, you are holy person. Let us get angry with them, you be like a Mother Teresa who never got angry…you just pray and give the instructions” Well, did she get angry? Yes, she did. And it is also noted she spent many years conquering her darkness.

As I read her story, even watched her movie, I can feel relate to her feelings, and this whole experience has brought me to a deeper awareness of myself, to what many of us who have come to an understanding of ‘letting go’ of what we believe it should be, and have faith in the “Power that be.” In other words, we ARE doing the will of our Inner God and if we have Faith in the one God that is leading us all, it is all good and as it shall be.  For who am I or any one of us to say, “What is good or bad, right or wrong.” It is these judgments and expectations that stir up our anger, rage, fury, and wrath.

So, What about the Buddha? Did the Buddha get angry? Yes, Buddha got angry, reprimanded, and even kicked a basin. Buddha’s anger was if you mistreat others, and though it was anger, it was shared constructively in a stern fashion, just as with Jesus and Mother Teresa, in a stern fashion so as to be heard.

So there is anger when we ‘do not get our way,’ our feelings are hurt, something touches our fear places, or we ‘think’ something should be different. These are ‘angers’ from our human ego. And, for myself, I will say that I felt that when I first went to India. However, when one is angry from a compassionate and empathetic place, a place from the heart while still authentically loving who they are working with, passionate about who they are working for, is it really anger? or is it more like Jesus, and Mother Teresa, an indignation and being a stern voice? However, does that make it right? Wrong? Spiritual? Non-spiritual? None of the above…it makes us compassionate humans.

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So, just as St Francis…who, YES, also got angry, we all are learning to be aware of our emotions, where they are coming from, how to share our ‘indignation’ peacefully from a place within our hearts and with what calls our hearts.

I know for myself, the two most powerful emotions or feelings are gratitude and anger, and yet, at the core, they both are Love. This is the place I deepened into during that first consultation job. It grew with each consultation, and has continued to grow where I can I recognize it and transform it to a place of ‘compassionate apathy’ almost immediately. It is simple; however, it is not easy. However, the more you practice and surrender, the easier it can be.

Everything is what it is and it will be what it will be. Let your Heart lead the way.

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What Saturday Taught Me

SO….I awake on this Saturday, staying with taking one step in front of another, with a renewed determination to breakthrough this depression. I have been given my ‘homework’ by the Director of the video recordings for the Course…….so being in complete solitude this day, I randomly turn on my music to begin working on the computer and my homework…….and Lady Gaga comes on…………

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What a way to “Pray myself in.” It is exactly how I have been feeling. It takes me to the many times I have felt I could not go on….and how it has been the Animals, whether two-legged, mostly four-legged, have kept me going……the love and compassion and trust I have felt from them.

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The song is followed with Peaceful feeling the Oneness Deeksha of Moola Mantra invocation….

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followed by laughing and dancing as the “Me, Myself, and I” comes on! In our Oneness, it really is just the One Life……..it is, Me, Myself and I….the Holy Trinity playing out this game of Life through, as, and for each one of us…..and for me, personally, in this moment,  I am so grateful for my word of the year………

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That all of this is guiding me, leading me to fulfill the promises I have made, to where my heart is calling me

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This particular song…..a song introduced to me as I was leaving the building sight of the Animal Child Ashram last fall……follows. It brings me the One Reason……..

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Then I claim……I AM the person my Dog knows I am…..There is just no describing how beautifully synchronistic it is to just turn on your music and have Spirit play exactly what you need to take you to the place you need go, for what you need to do.

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I hop on the internet to check messages. I receive an email stating I need to fill out a form for my Food Assistance……and I am unsure how to fill it out. It is time for my daily ride, so I decide to ride to the Food Assistance office to get instruction…….Spirit said “no” clearly…..the motorcycle mysteriously would not start…..at all.

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Now, in the past I have not had luck working this on the phone, face to face has been glorious; however, I hear my intuition to call….and it went PERFECTLY…..AND, after calling Road Side Assistance, going back out to move the motorcycle for them to get to her…She starts right up…..so I call back to cancel, and take the intended ride I had in mind.

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I try out the ‘new to me’ gifted helmet from the roadside with the Action camera attached…..now, I am not one to wear a full face helmet; however, for whatever reason, it is feeling pretty doable.

I go into the store to get my foods, and take back off. I reach up to turn the camera on…it is gone. Now Spirit had already guided me into the right lane to make the right turns needed to return to the store…….traffic had me locked so I could not turn left!

You know that panic of having lost an item gifted to you, the ‘urg’ of loss, as I am tracing my steps…..I had a by the door parking spot which I intended….I looked under the car that pulled into the spot, go through the store, and back out knowing I must surrender to the demise…….and then, I look back and see the camera almost under the tire of the car…

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Thank you Great Spirit!!!

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And I am grateful for my sustenance!! And I can see how I am being slowly returned to a diet without a refrigerator

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As I pray myself in to return to my homework….I notice Heart-shaped vines and how they are traveling up to Tree Trunks…

Yet, when at the back door of the apartment…..It is only One Tree Trunk
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This Cicada flys into me and lands……and I hear, “At some angles may look like two, however, when you come out of your shell, it is always just one.” So yeah, I have been here before……..I am to root, yet I am to travel….for example.

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Then Two Hawks screech out and fly over ………………………

 

 

 

My Week With the Animals

I am grateful for the first true recording day….and the beautiful guidance in keeping it focused with the Animals and the transformations we made together as I took the Universal Principles and applied them honestly within my consciousness.


“Keep to the Core message, the Ants will take it from there.” I am grateful how I am guided to keep to the Core Message and the beauty of how this applies with all the Animals. One can barely see the Ants; however, they are trailing their parts back home.

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Monday, after the first recording for the “Reflections with Animals” video recording; I am feeling my Unique Message and reconnected with that Aggressive Pinpoint Focus and am synchronistically gifted a unique Shark Tooth! I am even more grateful for the joyous, uplifting Spirit from whom the gift was received.

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Tuesday; during the recordings, and this process of sharing the stories from my years of rescuing, building the K-9 B&B/Doggie Daycare; I am reminded;  “I am loyal like a Dog.” I reconnect with how this can be my downfall and it can also be my blessing……either way, it all done from an intention of Love. Something may irritate me; I recognize it is not the someone or soul, it is not the Love they are, or the mirror they demonstrate to me……it is how I perceive it, and how I choose to work with it. I love them, am loyal to them, and will give me best. I recall in my years of rescues how many have bitten me, and yet I understand and love them anyway.

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I feel the Trust Napoleon has to keep him safe during the midnight Thunder in our tent. Spirit has shared at the core of every Culture or original Tenants, we are here to learn and care for the Animals as we would choose to be cared for……I know I lean into my Trust, and truly enjoy being comforted.

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Wednesday, I am given notice of how this seeming tangled web of my past few years’ experiences has me catching a greater, proven message. I am wrapping it up in a package one strand at a time.

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Thursday, as I squat and place my hand on Mother Earth in gratitude for freeing myself, a Raccoon (2nd daytime appearance in one week, different locations) begins to walk upon me. I was hearing how to use my ‘different masks’ in making the MayaHara Meditation completely my own so I can make it available.

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On Friday, Hawk circles and screeches by numerous numbers and varieties; reminding me continuously, I am the Messenger, the Message, and the one receiving the Message…..and thus is so evidently so as I work with my director/producer. Sometimes, it is so helpful to hear your own message repeated back to you, how other perceive and hear it, and a different angle to bring out your best……I am also so grateful to look up

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and see that it is time to fly in and take my place in the ribs of a platform I have been praying for to help get the message of the Animals out into the world. I am gifted with an opportunity………I see it, thank you for the clarity Great Spirit, my action is next.

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Hummingbird graces me, takes quite an interest in buzzing around me and sharing, “tweet, tweet” as if in gratitude together, how I capture my Joy when I am confident, centered, focused, and taking action as ‘me’…..and how good it felt to claim my Rib spot, so I can share my Nectar…..and I can feel how a ‘right platform’ is building and gaining momentum.

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I am grateful for a day in the Forest of Tree Animals on Saturday, my 7th-day of rest and begin venturing…..the strength, the roots, the expansion, and most notably for me today….. I hear, “Find me a four-leaf Clover” however, there is no real purpose, just a whisper……At the end of the walk, this is noticed….Jack-in-the-Pulpit…..laying over what could be a large four leaf Clover…….This Jack has not quite risen out of his pulpit yet.

Nope…..I am not ready yet; so I am staying offline, continuing to reorganize, record, listen, write, and bring this mush to some substance.

 

 

What My Week Taught Me

My week begins with a Sunday visitor after my morning spiritual rituals…….

img_2531teaching me that a ‘Dream of the Night’ (Moth) rooted in Joy is out in the morning Sun for me to behold and appreciate…..so as I return into the the apartment, everything in it is to be rearranged, once again (the 4th and I believe last time.) It is extremely good and demonstrative of the evolving awareness and flow of our time here together; however, admittedly, it stifled me at first. I am grateful it had me taking a long, insightful look over the next few days with what is taking place, the gift of what I bring to places I visit and pray for………not only others, but because I know it comes through myself……so it is all me, and yet it is not me.

I am grateful each rearranging has been completely mutual, coordinated, synchronized. Even though this time ‘felt’ different. I have shared and honored, “This is not ‘my place,’ what do you want?” when asked up to now; however, this time it is made perfectly clear I am a visitor when I am asked to engage in helping. In the process of it all taking place, was a demanding vibration….even though I could see the good and the answer to all our requests. What I did not see was my “Napoleon” with the ASC module’s recording space……I also got to witness how I have evolved in staying gratefully quiet, compassionate with the process, and staying helpful…..in the moment…..

Once the Blessed Rearrangement completes, I want to fly off……….

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However, Napoleon brings me the Alligator energies, the curious fun of looking at all the angles…

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Then, Napoleon alerts me to a visitor, the promise of Caterpillar….seeming to glow the joy and magic; and it reminds me to fly with it……..well, I am in the mush currently, reconstructing all my pieces.

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The Fire Ants get my Right Foot really good….. The team has stung me, and as I face my own responsibility in this….. I have no better Teacher than who I am here with….”Thank you Great Spirit!” I know without a doubt is preparing for the Animal Child Ashram; however, it does not make this easy. There is a part of me, admittedly feels defeated.

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and being unable emotionally to call my prayer partner, has me at a moment of decision……I am in the deep depression….. then, gratefully the Amino Acids arrive to begin resetting hormones….and my heart empathizes with Napoleon being ill. As I do the ‘Hoppo’opono prayer with him, I feel how grateful I am at how He is demonstrating the energetic releasing of my depression.

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I am so grateful for the Inner Wisdom as I have ‘sat with myself’ since the Storm (in all those ways) came through that Sunday, including taking out Wifi/cable, and now here on Tuesday, it is still out. The mutually deep, compassionate, honest, respectful communication between my Host and myself takes us to a deeper appreciation and also brings about trial runs in the studio for the next course in the ASC module……By the way, Napoleon is bright-eyed, healthy, and has his appetite back!!

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However, on Wednesday, I learn I must complete a full timeline for the Video recording of the Stories for the Studio time…….and, it is confirmed in a most interesting way, I will be leaving the end of June and all recordings will be complete…..so my fasting begins till the Timeline outline up to the end of the first 50 state Peregrination begins.

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Napoleon and I get the home all dry, packed back up……

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and I am so grateful how I can feel the Amino Acids kicking in…

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and I am reminded of the lone Ceremony I had Sunday of letting the tearful Goddess go.

..my depression is beginning to lift; and I am so grateful how through even the toughest (what I can only term ‘smoosh,’ emotional weeks on a personal level) there is a peace, a harmony, and compassionate energy with all of us working together; with yet a strong “on our own,” focus, and clear boundaries. There is absolutely no reason or need to run….The Buffalo faces it, the Elephant clears through it, and the Goat makes every leap surefooted…..

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The power of the mind….the vibrational attraction….is clear on Thursday as I complete the early portion of the timeline, and take a walk. Dirtbikes and fourwheeler being ridden by some young human animals…..big part of my childhood!….

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I cannot resist any longer ….. I hear you Daniel Boone …. every time I pass, I hear, “Your blazing new trail, no one said it was easy….simple, not easy…..one step at a time.”

Grateful internet returns, though Spirit already had me started editing through my external hardrive storage to complete the Timeline by my deadline….and honor my Host.

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Yes, I am….and I am grateful for the reminder……and Napoleon demonstrates this to me clearly…….and I am told, once again to begin the “Napoleon Blog.”……..for right now, I am clearly learning another level of Independence…..and I am grateful He is keeping my heart open with purpose.

Friday I am reminded of my word for the year, “Faith,” through the church sign I pass every morning. I changed this morning.

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Exactly….Faith and Trust….that is how I have gotten this far, and my love for the Animals. Faith Spirit gives me the clarity with the steps, strength to move forward, peace with all my relations, supply for all needed to be done and cared for, loving guidance in all actions, everything…….I can see that Spirit, quite frankly, …with a lot of things…..deepening this in me…..along with my gratitude.

Then, I receive the most amazing compliment about how I have been handling everything with such Grace….that if this past week or so had been ‘theirs,’ it would have been done & over for them, that they would have left immediately, angrily. I know the thoughts were in my mind; however, that is not my real Heart…those were thoughts, feelings, and I left them in the woods……My Heart, is like the Heart of …..Animals.

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My Saturday, the wrap up of the week……………………….I will prepare in another entry.

Arigato……Mitake Oyasin

What My Week Taught Me

Sunday, I definitely notice a shift in Napoleon…so grateful to witness, to experience how each day He is so much more lovey; and I notice now, how it is extending into longer loveys today, even laying on me every chance He gets today. I noticed the shift after returning from a wonderful Sisters’ gathering last week and taking Him to get His flea collar and putting on? Interesting.

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Grateful to notice the underlying depression still lingering, and how sometimes it does grab me…….and when it does, I witness how I retreat within, and Napoleon retreats under the bed…….I am grateful today, like each day; I keep persisting. My question I find, placing on the Altar is, please bring to my clarity to this depression, as I am doing all I know to do, including ‘being with it.’

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An opportunity to be of service arrives, helping clean off the mold….with a warning to not breath it in. This is the same mold I was living with in many of my rooms in India. I claim my Health and Wholeness, and for my families I love and miss in India.

I am graced, not only with Napoleon, but with Grey GosHawk coming to visit during the invocation for the night’s YogaChi. Thank you Great Spirit, as the inspiration and the Energy was such a blessing…….and to hear the second GosHawk sing out and join as YogaChi progresses.

Monday….

on my normal Meditation Walk/Run with Napoleon, He points out a little Woman on my path for me to retrieve. She is Standing Tall and Strong in Her Power.

And as I pass back by the Church……the sign has changed….Hmmmm

Coming in the drive, there seems to be an overwhelming feeling of a fork in the road……and it is coming here now. The hopping back in forth will complete; however, the question of battling the depression seems to be the broken leg preventing me leaping.

So, it seems no surprise fleas are spotted on Napoleon again. He is still wanting more snuggles, longer, and stiller……and for the mirror it brings myself; Yes, I am grateful for being held, comforted, and accepting of assistance through these irritants. I am grateful He is with me, keeps me persisting, if for nothing else, His sake.

I am so grateful to keep focusing and now the first course of the Animals Spirit Connection module is complete!

I keep hearing “The Fork in the Road.”

Tuesday it is literally keep putting one foot in front of the other….. and taking a stand, or more appropriately a ride to the Food Assistance office, trusting the location I was given to go………Part of me, felt it odd to have to go to Quincy when in Tallahassee…..

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I have Faith, and like the sign on a Church on the way to the office in Quincy……”P.U.S.H. Pray until something happens.”

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Sure enough, It was a perfect ride, the correct office, magnificent help, sweet and easy.

I return to Napoleon for Napoleon’s Bow and super snuggles, and introduce Him to His special “come” treat! Finally I find it!

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Grateful to follow my Inner Guidance and what I was reminded of from my Prayer partner…..”Do whatever it feels right and keep taking yourself to that happy place.”

So, I clear the Goddess mask, spray the camping gear,

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What others do with their side……that is between them and their Divine, as long as it is not endangering another sentient being.

Wednesday waking up in the t ent. First morning….so proud of Napilein. Ride back to Quincy; intuitional knowing to just show up, and wow that was simple! Forget the kindle and worked the gear. Keep it simple.

Thursday….grateful for a “Me” day! Turn on music and whatever comes…a naked day. Yet even went for a total uninhibited ride….complete with no hands. Even Napoleon totally relaxed and finds turtle….Two Black Havelina on walk


Friday Do Helmet, fix Dread tail, clear and look through Box



Saturday grateful to sleep in lunch and a movie “The Shack”

What my Week Taught Me

I ease back into my work week on Sunday working my Journals (though I have not really taken any real time off) and Napoleon’s itching. He has no Ticks, no Fleas, no …… (I have worked the irritations for sure) however, still itching…..and those eyes gaze at me to understand. For his comfort, I keep feeling the Louise Hay affirmation for Itching. I know and feel how part of me is not in joy of being here, I do see it. I thank him for the message and bringing it to my awareness. I can feel my restlessness inside now when I see or hear him itching……….It has me really digging to stay in the now.

“Shhhhhhh”……Says the Tree Spirit, “There is nothing to say. Listen, learn, love.”

So, this is the message of my week everyday as I Napoleon and I pass on our meditation run! Grateful to pass this sign everyday this week! Yes, I welcome the Gift of Freedom this week! I am listening.

 

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Grateful for the hidden messages which stand out for me in Nature; and how they correlate with my thoughts passing through.

 

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During Noon Deeksha……This unusual and unique Creature captures my attention.

Monday……I continue to feel ‘my’ confidence rise with finishing the first Study Guide, and getting excited to gear up for tomorrow’s ride to Macon, GA for Royal Enfield’s tune-up.

The tracks in the sand have me fascinated! The Creatures who have come through in the night making designs.

Single trail of little dots amongst the tire tracks……

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We all can leave our own unique trail for others to take notice and admire, if one chooses.

Tuesday, I am so grateful for a good, long, scenic ride through GA. I learned I need to work on my Core strength more to support Napoleon when it is time to begin traveling again. ….. it was our first long trip, close to 191 miles. We are about 25 miles out, and a church sign states, “God provides all the strength needed.”  Thank you.

Napoleon was absolutely amazing for his first long trip, and his first night (that I know of) in a hotel room!! Napoleon did so well!!

On the return, after being graced by Spirit through the Royal Enfield’s service, price, and timeliness; I am blessed to see a Fox beginning to breech open woods to cross the road. I rev the Engine and the Fox turns back. Next, I see a Dog cross way up ahead and know to get over, as I can feel how this little White Eskimo Dog is going to try to “get me.” I say prayer, and the dog does begin to run for me. I am passed; however, in the rear view mirror, I see the Dog bow on the road suddenly as the car behind me nearly misses.

Then comes a huge fountain, more like waterfall across the road…..created by the Farm equipment watering their fields…….Now that felt GOOD! I have traveled many roads; however, that was truly a first!

Soon after, I am given a new mantra on a church sign, “We live by Grace through our Faith.”

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Returning to our Host’s homestead to enjoy evening YogaChi with Hummingbird and Gladiolas. Oh yes, “I accept my sweet, glad, nectar!”  I love riding, I love meeting Animals (Humans too!) and inspiring them to live their Freedom. I love seeing Nature, my Life and the exhilaration of where this is all leading, the possibilities. Thank you Spirit for the riding reprieve of these two days…….and knowing the Bullet is “Good to Go!”

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It truly makes me feel as free as this Butterfly…….even though I got a lot more “work” to do before I can even consider taking off again.

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Today’s tracks just had me laughing…..  Footprints on Mother’s Heart.

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as Napoleon and I pass under my beloved Black Vultures, turning their heads, eye-balling Napoleon and I…..”Yes, we are in harmony with our ‘live’ transformation in a magical Crow-like way.” Black Vultures are Crow-like, heartier than Turkey Vultures, and will take their ‘prey’ live if needed to.

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I am given my next assignment, and need to jump onto Facebook to get the timeline for the assignment, the next ‘Book’ in the Animal Spirit Connection teaching module…..This is what pops up on my screen when it opens…….I am grateful for the reminder. I know it, many time over; however, it is still good to ‘hear.’

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Thursday, a pair of Grey Hawks arrive in the neighborhood. Their call is different, as the one swoops down to make sure I take notice…..then begin circling, soaring. I am grateful for the Peace, for being here, and my diligence in moving forward, despite the seeming negativity and sadness which seems to loom.

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For the Love of these Animals who give their all, all the time…..for a loving belly rub.

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The Grey Hawk joins me for evening YogaChi……So grateful considering it was a bit of a ‘push’ to get myself outside to do; and just like I know intuitively, it was not long and the energy took me over for a rejuvenating session…..it seems ‘odd’ that, even though I know ‘this’, I still will think to resist sometimes….once I got going, the partner Hawk came flying in to join in the grooming session we were all participating in.

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Friday morning after a Full Moon bathing and morning ceremony, the meltdown happens during my practices.

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It is time to extend to the full 4 miles…..and the added loop brings a reminder of “concise prayer” or Buffalo energy………

When I return, there is a most blessed conversation between one of my Hosts and I, beginning with an aha which came to him during his morning practice. “It is about the Joy I get out of doing what I do, not the money.” YES!! It is, and has been for me from the very beginning. I love seeing and feeling the Joy of the Animals; and I love the deepened connections with the Humans, especially the Children when working with them.  I have allowed myself to get ‘caught up’ in that before, we all do. What I know, is Great Spirit provides. My Faith has graced me with exactly what I need, every time.

I have been doing preparations on the next ‘book’ in the Module. The past couple of days has been a ‘build up’ of energy….the meltdown….and now, there is a teamed solution, I remember one of my ‘pleas’ during my meltdown……”I need help, how is this going to get done?”

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From my Host, “Thank you, now I have a purpose!” and I am given direction……”Do a timeline!” I just love good heart to heart talks, with no judgment, and a solution which everyone is grateful for…….I get teary just thinking about it.

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So, I treat myself to clearance ‘butt’ pillow…..it is not everyday when you walk in a store, there is a perfect pillow, for a perfect price, and only one, sitting in a rack of clearance. I had just had the thought that morning….”I could use a good little pillow I can carry with me……LOL”

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Napoleon is treated with his first PB Jar experience!!

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Friday night…..Movie night……”I want to watch a Nature documentary or movie.”

“Here’s one” “Call of the Wild” there are Wolves, Alaska, a German Shephard.”  “Okay, sounds good.”

It was tough. It shared a part of the Human history with exploration, greed, and Animals…..and yet, the Human standing for an Animal, having compassion, and the bonds of love between them. What made it harder to watch, was the time when the movie was made, and the laws for the Animals were not so stringent in production.

My gratitude goes to those who stood, for the Animals begin so patient with us to learn.

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Then, the pouring rains…..red glowing lightening……and swirling winds……..Whoohoo!

My day off……I take it…..I get to go have some Divine Feminine time!!

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I have Dancing time making a Fruit Salad with my special ingredient for the Sisters!

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My Sister Host and I pull out……And greeted by my Black Vulture couple……..

and as we continue……

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I just had to capture this…..”If anything can go well, it will!!”

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Whoohoo! I am so grateful; I have been praying for this for a long time……since I became a Practitioner in 2011 and was told people are not ready to embrace the Animals ‘religiously’ yet……however, step by step we are getting back to Animals being the “original religion.” This is the term that a Hindi hotel manager and I discussed earlier in the week. We shared, practically simultaneously that the ‘original people’ no matter the country, learned from the Animals….they (the Animals) were God’s messengers.

 

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Hey, face it….the Animals were here before the Human…..and we are Animals too.

Put on your Amethyst Crown, and be the God you want the Animals in your life to have. (I was told by my Sisters if I put the Crown on, I would get pregnant! so I HAD to put it on! LOL)

What I Learned This Week

I learned 365 Animal Gratitude book is more than I anticipated. So grateful for the support, guidance, and vision which has come through several of my Hosts. Great Spirit’s breath runs through us all; however, many times it will come through others. We all have our specialties, and many times it takes a team. I am grateful for the team Great Spirit has gifted me with.

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And so now, I am grateful Great Spirit is given me the next egg…..The Study Guide for this 365 Animal Gratitude book. It begins this Monday morning……and the Guidance to stay balanced through the day by naturally engaging me in Noon Deeksha and evening Yoga.

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The Bird of Paradise blooms…….and I am grateful for feeling free after a having a “bring me the clarity in a harmonious way that benefits everyone” moment last night……..and it demonstrates through me and my Hosts this morning.

 

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In the middle of it all IS the Spider of Joy (orange) weaving………Grateful for the demonstration of clarity and keeping my power….and with perfect harmony

I freed myself; I am free to express the unique me, and even though part of me has no idea where this is leading, part of me has a vision, a determination, and a knowing…..I am grateful for all the magic Spirit has for me and is guiding for what is my best yet to be.

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Wednesday, I realize how grateful I am for my ‘ingrained’ Spiritual practices.

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Grateful for the precision of Great Spirit to place a Feather in a crack of road, and have me walk by to witness.

Grateful for the Eagle while praying in for a meeting with a URI Compassion for Animals Call………followed by Hawk and Crow at the park entrance for my meditation run.

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Grateful for determination and persistence with moving forward …. I am almost ready to have the Study Guide looked at for advice!!

Thursday brings pouring rains…..for me, it is a way for Spirit to say…..rest your physical body! Ha! However, it also brings Napoleon to naturally guard me. In this guarding, it brings a wonderful, cleansing conversation between ‘us.’

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I am gifted some incredible advice which simplifies and deepens the study guide at the same time………and I get it complete, ready for review! So, when I take my evening walk, in my path as I enter, is Turtle laying Her eggs……right at the spot I typically do my voice journal. “You lay the eggs as I instinctually guide you, let Mother incubate them, all Nature to the rest.” Exactly what I needed to ‘hear,’ as I begin to hear my thoughts of ‘worthiness.’

Friday as I pray in the day……early am…..I see a shooting star, then a second….I say, “How about a third Spirit?” and I receive…..Thank you Great Spirit! Thank you!

Perfect for the intense workday reviewing, editing, and organizing the study guide; while standing in my Truth on certain things……a perfect blend of “academic” mind and  ‘mystical’ mind……then, Napoleon demonstrates it is time to play!!

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THEN….

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On my Meditation Walk….Spirit gifts me with a Core Ball! for me to use….and the Perfect Color too! I had just considered getting one….and here it is on the side of the road. Though at this time, I am not sure why Spirit had me take the Helmet; however, more will be revealed for sure.

Napoleon has started itching again….so I look up in Louise Hay’s book, “Heal Your Life” ‘Itching.’ Fits perfectly, I understand.

So, Saturday….I have my work to complete on the Study Guide, I want to push forward; however, it has been two weeks with no ‘real’ day off. I know Napoleon is demonstrating to me what it is I am really feeling though underneath the stubborn ‘Mule” in me to keep pushing……so for Napoleon, (and myself)……we do it.

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We get out! Grateful for the perfectly nice day, warming up beautifully after a perfect chilly morning to sleep in. I am so grateful how Spirit provides exactly what is in order.

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Grateful for these beautiful clear Spring Waters! You can actually see the Fish swimming at the bottom…….then I remembered I have been affirming perfectly clear waters! LOL

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I am grateful our full complete day off and for my week ending with watching “Secret Life of Pets” and “Waterhorse”

For me, Animals………the reason I be, do, what it is I be, I do.

 

What My Week Taught Me

My Week begins with teaching me, no…..actually demonstrating to me that when ‘It’ shares with me something, it will be. It may not occur in ‘my’ time; however, it will.


So, after having Lizard show up several times and when Lizard enters the house, I am in awe; however, I am not surprised. I recall working with Lizard ‘Energy’ over the years; and I am so grateful for Lizard to return.

http://www.spirit-animals.com/lizard/

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I am grateful for Lizard’s quiet and brief encounter with Napoleon, my ability to distract Napoleon and for Lizard listening to get to Higher Ground.

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I’ve heard several times to set up and waterproof my recent gift, the tent, in my meditations. I hear it will rain, and yet the sun is shining. I move forth how I am guided. The tent gets complete. I am gifted an opportunity to serve and surprisingly raise cash.

Then, as the rains pour in, I am guided onto the computer, into a location and find some missing stories I had written!! Giving me the opportunity to do my “normal Sunday journaling.” It really does all get done…..and effortlessly when I listen to my Breath and follow the Natural Flow.

It is like being a playful Puppy with wings jumping through and as the Clouds…..I am grateful for the reminder.

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Monday is chilly; so Napoleon and I are grateful for the extra snugly wugly all day while I work on edits for the next book. So, for someone who dislikes cold; I can admit, the cuddles is a good benefit of cold.

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The first proof of the first book arrives!! I am grateful, excited, and yet…..there is more edits to do, for sure.

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With this and some other interesting news I receive; I could feel how my Energy is beginning to fall. I step outside to begin playing peek-a-boo with Lizard. The fogginess clears, my thoughts shift, and though not crystal clear, I can see the good in it all at the same time…..Spirit has some magic coming and I get the opportunity to grow some by letting this flow through me…….And Hawk screeches flying through.

I gift myself into surrendering to the editing process….with Faith of where it is leading. If I listen to my some of my thoughts, it would be easy for me to just stop. Instead, I keep surrendering to what the energy is leading me to ‘do.’

 

Wednesday…..oversleep but have an inceredible snuggle with Napoleon….it is all about the book edits and wow! As I am reading the pages…..I gotta keep grounding.

Like Lizard…….”Keep your head risen and follow your Guidance.”

Thursday it is all about the Book edits…….Wow! There is nothing like reading and editing 365 prayer meditations!! AND I still got to take Napoleon for a ride to the park! Then finish the day yoga… Awesome! Thank you Great Spirit!

The Sun attempts to hide, as I receive some more news which, once again, plummets me initially.

 

I pull up my Journal to write some thoughts and am met with a message………

Napoleon joins me as I treat myself to a Salt Bath………

and as I let it all go……I feel this focused determination flood me….and the Dragon above me begins spinning.

Friday I am naturally led into a fasting………and I am grateful for the focused, determined, two days of 365 Animal Gratitude book editing through these pages.

Balanced with hourly breaks of admiring the next Lily’s growth and the smiling Gladiolas………

and admiring the playful spouts between Napoleon and the Dogs.

and on Napoleon and I’s last walk for the week…..Saturday night…..The DragonFly whom had played with me numerous times over the past few weeks reminding me to dance and reflect the Light…..gifts Itself to me.

What My Week Taught Me

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I am so grateful for my mornings….how much I really appreciate my quiet time, my MayaHara Self-Love meditation….and I deserve it. It is so worth getting up between 4-5 am to enjoy it…the absolute quiet and filling all my senses up….and sharing that with the world. Then, the gift of taking Napoleon out to explore explore with me during my empowering Sunrise Walk/Run.

“Focus on what you want, instead of on releasing, instead of on letting go…focus only on that which truly matters” is. what came out of my mouth……..so grateful for the conversation with a Soul Sister……where through our conversation it came through, “sometimes it is strand by strand, a minute by minute, re-directing of the mind….however, it is a practice so worth it. It is a weaving of our web, and we are all doing it. It is amusing, in its own way, when you realize this. We are all in our own areas, in our own ways, playing our own parts, and interlocking webs.

And the added beauty for me, is the Animals keep appearing for me at those most perfect moments…..”Spin mindfully, Weave prayerfully.” Spider come directly to my little corner.

 

…..I am grateful to witness Napoleon engaged in it! LOL

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And on Monday, after an Amazing MayaHara, where the ‘concept’- “The world is what you believe it is” had me ‘sensing’ this on a conceptual level I could write a book, and yes, with the Animals. I get accept more abundance…..another item from my anonymous gifter……a tent!

It seems Spirit is gearing me for an upcoming adventure! I accept please; and knowing the ASC Teaching Module is complete just in time.

On Tuesday, I am grateful for the Owl hooting loudly by me as I claimed the Stillness as my own, which was the moment I completed my gratitude prayer post…..and the moment when the last entry for the 365 Animal Gratitude book!

As I take this out into my day, the Crows ask to be gifted to….and the Bear reminds me to keep my feet on the ground…..and keep following the footsteps.

I am grateful to learn I am going to be Great Aunt as I go into Noon Deeksha….I am prompted to send prayerful energy to all the Children coming into our world….send them, affirm for them what we want them for them….

Nature gives to all and uses the same principles for all, no matter the species….all children. It gives Its best and matches to the thought it is making it from…..so I get to choose my best.

Then, Spirit laughs!! LOL the MayaHara med is a no go on YouTube….Spirit wants only the best, and done right. It is time to learn about copyright permissions….then the GoPro malfunctions on day long recording…..I know Spirit has Its reasons….I let it go, it was a good practice!!

Pink Full Moon Ceremony…The Community Animal Blessing Pipe Bundle ‘officially’ decides to become a “Love” Pipe….giving It’s last Ceremony this night with the last of the Tobacco……a perfect 5 Directional all inclusive Ceremony, complete with a Fire.

The Fire began with the East Door and encircling around completely on Its own. The Owl Log pushed into the Center from the West and the Phoenix rose….we are so embracing at the door of ending our silence and embracing real love on a collective level, I feel it.

I am grateful for a different kind of “workday”……. I spend with my Loves. The Community Pipe asked to be fully cleansed as if never smoked, petsitting, and learning about hem glue and banding….one can be,find, and do a solution when you listen to those inner breath promptings.

The morning was …….. magical! So grateful to witness the Pink Full Moon greeting the Sun rising with Hawk. So Blessed and I learned I really would like to manifest a digital, USB rechargable Voice Recorder or mini-cam so I can record the thoughts which pass as these experiences are happening.

As I am facilitating the Lotus Sutra meditation in front yard, Pileated WoodPecker makes a pass, later Hummingbird makes a presence during Noon Deeksha. Above, I listen to Spirit and take Napoleon on a ride. What I learn is Spirit is guiding me to practice riding this gravel route everyday and practice…..Hmmm. Plus, I find a really sweet shaded area I’ll call a little sanctuary with some special Grasshoppers.

On Friday, I learn how grateful I am for the connection of feeling the Whelk grounded on the Ocean bottom while I am talking with a dear Soul Sister and hearing what She shares with me. I feel where the debris is still; and, it is I who stirs it up.

I heard Spirit, loud, clear, when I asked my Sister, “What do you want?” “I want to live!” and louder, “Live, I want to live!”

I want to Live! I choose LIFE. I have heard this numerous times from different Sisters lately….my question is, “What does it mean to YOU to live?” We all have a different “Life.”

I want to leave a Legacy for the Animals, for Children to enjoy…for them to enjoy together.

I share with Spirit, I want to support my Host; however, I want to live my life and be me, and ‘me’ is not necessarily spending my day off at a Market.

Spirit answers in a loving, supportive, gentle way which benefits everyone.

So, I am grateful for a day of serving my Host without having to stay at Festival. I got to visit, and it was extremely sweet; however, I got to cross the threshold of edits and submitted the first book of the module!!

 

 

What My Week Taught Me

Sunday I was reminded there is a balance between serving others and taking care of yourself


Monday I was reminded in praying for others, serving in my own way, I am also taking care of myself….it works both ways, we are all one. I have been diligent in my prayers of abundance for myself and others. Another care package arrives and an intention for receiving a gifted Drum I had made several months ago is within it.

I am grateful to know others have received theirs as well. It is a principle of Nature and always delivers in perfect time and conditions.

I am grateful for an awesomely focused workday with the “365 Animal Gratitude” book almost complete!

And I have to say the Thunderstorm that evening was magnificent…..and as I witness Napoleon, I am grateful He is allowing me to compassionately sooth him.

I feel like this Angel in the sky on Wednesday after my night with Napoleon peacefully surrendering to the storm and being given the blessed opportunity to sit mindfully listening to another Soul for several hours processing through some deep and most intimate thoughts…..there was a gleam of admiration and gratitude as the conversation naturally came to its own end.

For myself, I recognize there is a beautiful balance of taking responsibility and being responsible. I am grateful I utilize my awareness to zoom into to a space where we are all connected as One, it is neither good or evil, It just is. ‘It’ is the Presence which spoke the dichotomy into existence. I ask to use ‘It’ wisely, for ‘It’ to use me, guide me, naturally. I feel grateful to experience it.

I am grateful for the laugh as this message pops up on my Werdsmith screen! as I was contemplating the Books and teaching module…….it is funny how the perfect messages which one need to hear come in a diverse variety of ways.

As I walk by this pond, I get a visual of how I am thinking and feeling as if I am breaching through my feeling stagnation from being ‘planted’ for a while……and knowing it; and feeling as if I have come to a place of peace, within the peace.  This from someone who has been on the the surface of my pond.

I am grateful to ‘see’ how my thoughts had been sidetracking me to ‘make plans’ and the appreciation I have of knowing what may be coming; however, detaching enough to stay open and flexible, and be with what is happening in the moment.

I begin having these extremely grateful moments in many areas, like being able to live in this environment, do my ‘normal’ thing with meditations, recording them, everyday, and it brings me even more excitement about what I am feeling futuristically.

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It was during one of these moments, Hawk appears. Another one, Crow, flew into the Tree near me. Followed by an occurrence of me hollering out, “bring it on”…..the Geese konk and 2 White Swallowtail Hawk-like Birds fly a dance above me…..in a quick passing.

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Thursday Morning…..as I am feeling the Wanderer Spirit within me, wandering around this blessed yard, feeling myself being in love, sharing MayaHara and abundance of places and animal ceremony with a relaxed yet authoritative sharing……I am seduced by this Mask. She wants me to work with Her, clean Her up and decorate Her.

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As I witness Napoleon, I see the mirror of Napoleon’s fleas and hot spots……what I allow to irritate me, and it is too synchronistic with those moments where I allow my mind to obsess on something that just ‘gets me heated.’

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I am grateful for my next “Ah-ha” …… a complete and total “Ah-f-cking-ha.” It seems ‘odd’ to have this ‘ahha’ again, after all ‘I am me;’ however, this time, on a chilly cold morning, when I embraced into a just warmed-up relaxed meditation run……… and let the cold go, in came a, “enjoy the f-cking joy of just being and living me everyday. Feel it and f-cking allow it…..do the work and be.” There is just no explaining the feeling; however, with the Crows, the Hawk, the peeping-up morning sunshine and all the Animal tracks…..it was a memorialized morning in my my mind.20170406_164602136_iOS

I learn Friday I will be hosting my breathing meditation, followed by noon Deeksha and YogaChi…..and record them, no matter what happens, stay recording them. And Napoleon welcomes the first participant.

The week ends with enjoying my day off….though I spend it in much contemplation of bringing all together that which I love about me, what I have affirmed for my life, and for others and how I love my life and living it daily. Here and now.

I get blessed with time alone to get to know my new drum and as I am doing so, I notice how just about everything in my possession now is recently created new…..better, yet the same..simpler, streamline, sturdy, and mindfully.

I love my support, my Host through my hosts, how the Crows caw out to me at the most magical moments……. and most of all, I am grateful to dance my day, in my own way to my own music, come what may.